I hate it when you love someone and then they treat you like shit for many years so then you hate them and then they go and do something nice for you. Why can't they just leave your heart alone? I don't like it when I don't know where I stand with someone. If you hate me, that's cool; If you like me, that's better -- just please make it one way or the other and make it clear which it is. Don't be two-faced with me, and don't ignore me for a year and then act like we're best buddies. My heart is like Silly Putty -- if you stretch it too far it just breaks. I'd rather you just leave it alone.
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School started today. It's just a library class where you learn about plagiarism and how to find scholarly articles and such, but getting back in the swing of homework and quizzes and reading assignments and "participation" is going to be a struggle. I'm anxious to start the classes that interest me, so I've got to get these out of the way first.
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Work is going pretty good, I think. I've not been told otherwise, anyway. Hopefully no news is good news. Most days I have real difficulty keeping my eyes open while I'm there because there's not much to the job. I'm so old I now require daily naps. I like to take my lunch hour by sleeping in my car -- how's that for pathetic? When I'm out there I close my eyes and dream I'm on my island, surrounded by palm trees and crystal blue ocean.
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My wonderful mother is driving down here on Saturday to spend some time with me next week for my birthday. It's not like it's a milestone birthday or anything, so it's understandable that no one else is coming. Why would they? It's not important. People turn 40 all the time. No big deal.
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DS did really well on his SAT. I think he said his total score was around 1,850 (the average is about 1,500). The students get their scores online so I guess I will never see the breakdown personally. Some days I miss the good ol' days of actual mail.
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I am addicted to some reality TV shows this season. "She's Got the Look" for wanna-be models over 40, "The Next Food Network Star" which totally cracks me up with how horrible they are in front of the camera, and "Design Star" which is better than a soap opera with all the drama that happens. My weekly TV habits revolve around these three shows.
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Seriously though, why couldn't she leave well enough alone???